Strawberry Fields Forever

“Let me take you down ’cause I’m going to Strawberry Fields. Nothing is real, and nothing to get hung about. Strawberry Fields forever. Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see. It’s getting hard to be someone, but it all works out. It doesn’t matter much to me.” -The Beatles, Strawberry Fields Forever

The setting sounds lovely and surreal. But it’s not about fields of strawberries, it’s about a Salvation Army orphanage that John Lennon grew up near in Liverpool. He uses the nostalgic setting to search for himself. It’s getting hard to be someone. But whatever. I don’t care. I know how he felt. I have no idea how to “be someone,” or if that’s even what I should be striving for.

Do I have to get an awesome job to be someone? I don’t know if I will get a job at all. I should be making a difference in the world. Am I? I’m no Mother Teresa, but I think I’ve helped people. I hope people I encounter benefit from knowing me. I try to love people and understand them, and to care about them even if I can’t understand them.

I’m lonely. Why? I have a great family, a wonderful boyfriend, a ton of friends. I do stuff. A glance at my thousands of nature photos from hiking and backpacking trips proves I have a pretty sweet life. But I’m still lonely. Probably just the weather and end-of-semester blahs. I wish I weren’t so flighty. Little things get me down. I need to be more deeply rooted, so nothing could shake me. Sometimes I feel like I’m living with my eyes closed, trying to just make life as easy as possible, ignoring a lot of potential.

This blog is worthless. Let me take you down, ’cause I’m going to Strawberry Fields. Nothing is real.

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About Nicole

Daughter of God, wife, mother, volunteer youth leader, substitute teacher, aspiring writer, rabbit owner, nature lover. These are some of my titles.
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4 Responses to Strawberry Fields Forever

  1. Jon says:

    Feeling perpetually lonely, dissatisfied, and out of place isn’t necessarily a bad thing. At least you’re in good company.

    Hebrews 11:
    These all died in faith, not having received the things promised, but having seen them and greeted them from afar, and having acknowledged that they were strangers and exiles on the earth. For people who speak thus make it clear that they are seeking a homeland. If they had been thinking of that land from which they had gone out, they would have had opportunity to return. But as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared for them a city.

  2. Nicole says:

    Now all I need is to recognize the feeling and stop chasing after empty things that don’t satisfy me. Maybe if I were motivated enough I could turn it into a selfless life of love and service to others. But instead I mostly just keep to myself and try to find things that will make me happier.

  3. Anonymous says:

    You’re a 22-year-old girl with a lot of stuff going on in her life. It’s natural to be a bit confused. It’s natural for you to be unsure a lot of the time. Believe me. Unfortunately, i meet a lot of girls your age and they all have similar problems. Don’t beat yourself up for being normal. You’re a smart and good person. Everything is going to be fine. You just need to give it time.

  4. Nicole says:

    You’re probably right.

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