“It’s gonna get harder still before it gets easy. I’m alone in this. I’m as I’ve always been, a step behind what’s happening.” –Jimmy Eat World, Always Be
I’m lonely, but I can’t bring myself to call my friends or go out.
I’m tired, but seem incapable of sleep.
I’m stressed, but can’t force myself to catch up on things.
I want something, but don’t know what.
The future freaks me out but the present isn’t much better. I don’t know what to do with myself. Don’t know what to look forward to. Don’t understand my purpose unless God has called me to be a mopey, self-pitying slob. There are good days and bad days. But lately it seems they are all bad. I wish someone would tell me what to do.
“Good things happen slowly, and bad things happen fast.” — A Three Dog Life by Abigail Thomas