“Your will above all else still my purpose remains. The art of losing myself in giving you praise. My heart and my soul – I give you control. Let justice and praise become my embrace, to love you from the inside out. Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades. Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame. And the cry of my heart is to bring you praise. From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out.” From the Inside Out by Hillsong United
I sit in Spill the Beans, praying and drinking tea and waiting for my meeting with the teacher about becoming her aide. I ask God for guidance. And I pray for my friends. It’s never healthy to focus too much on myself. There are so many struggles around me. I wish that I could heal all of my friends’ hurts and set their feet on the right path. I can’t. But God can. I lift them up, one or two at a time, person after person. Pages of my prayer journal fill. God, I could go on forever. But you already know. I remember to praise, but my praise is so weak compared to what He deserves. I offer my thanks and wish I had more to offer. Song after song speaks to my heart. Father is here with me. What can I worry about? All worries are silliness under God’s watchful eye.
“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls.” James 1:3-9